April's Expressions

Lilting tones and rainbow hues Dance across a quiet room. Curtains sway, kissed by the wind, Carrying expressions of a gentle afternoon. Its breath is ripe, fragrantly sweet, From wildflower blooms nearby. Earthen woods frame the view, While birds sail high in the sky. The air, it hums, teeming with life, Of a wild and subtle kind. As the sun's rays beckon eyes to close, I exhale a contented s i g h. by April Bender Mood Audio: Relaxing Celtic Music

Scattered fragments now magnetized Surface in interior rooms. Clumsily they coalesce, These orphans that Spirit exhumed.   I would have preferred they remain dead, These vagabonds of perplexity. They wreak only havoc inside of me Both emotionally and mentally.   They simply don’t fit any of my frames, Neither in belief or memory. And yet I know that I must integrate them If I wish ascendancy.   What is it then that you provide, Oh outliers of the deep? Since Spirit has resurrected you, There is a purpose for you indeed.   Come let me examine you And reveal the mystery to behold. I know you have a story to tell That hasn’t yet been told.   So let us uncover your wisdom, Even if it hurts to look. And perhaps if we uncover enough, We can restore what ego took. by April Bender Mood Audio: Chasing Dreams - Depar

No longer will I serve to be, the sacrificial lamb your ego needs. No longer will you project on me, your perceived failings and misery. No longer will I carry the guilt, for the house of choices that YOU built. No longer will you weigh me down, with the wearing of our family crown. No longer will I mourn the loss, tally the scorecard, or count the cost. No longer will you drain my light, as you must face your own dark night. And no longer will I seek your love, because I have all I need from heaven above. by April Bender  Mood audio: Imagine Dragons - Believe (This poem was written as an expression of inner releasing and clearing around issues of multi-generational childhood trauma and abuse. These are meant to be declarations to Self in the main as a form of release and empowerment, not a reflection of my love and compassion for family members.)