Defragmentation

Scattered fragments now magnetized

Surface in interior rooms.

Clumsily they coalesce,

These orphans that Spirit exhumed.

I would have preferred they remain dead,

These vagabonds of perplexity.

They wreak only havoc inside of me

Both emotionally and mentally.

They simply don’t fit any of my frames,

Neither in belief or memory.

And yet I know that I must integrate them

If I wish ascendancy.

What is it then that you provide,

Oh outliers of the deep?

Since Spirit has resurrected you,

There is a purpose for you indeed.

Come let me examine you

And reveal the mystery to behold.

I know you have a story to tell

That hasn’t yet been told.

So let us uncover your wisdom,

Even if it hurts to look.

And perhaps if we uncover enough,

We can restore what ego took.

by April Bender

Mood Audio: Chasing Dreams - Departures

The Dark Goddess

Once in awhile the Universe provides, an opportunity to view self through an observer's eyes. Today I was humbled and dismayed to find, that I cannot harness the Dark Goddess's ride. While I like to pretend to have total control, She is part of my wild side, part of my soul. I prefer the inner Angel all calm and sweet, While the Dark Goddess I wish none to meet. She fills me with guilt and unbearable shame, If only somehow her f ire could be tamed. My Angel tells me that Dark Goddess shouldn't exist, Yet in the end, it's the Angel who's dismissed. Why is it so hard to admit imperfection? To see all parts of self in my own reflection? To love even the unlovable parts of me, In that I am uncertain and yet I know it is key. How can you accept her when I myself cannot? What makes me deny her a conscious dwelling spot? If she's a valid and natural part of me, then I must figure out how to set her free. by Apr

Daffodil

An ancient wall comes crumbling down, ivy snaps...cascades to the ground. The protected garden behind the wall, grew an idea of love too small. It could not sustain our love within, it was time to reflect...to start over again. So I took a deep breath and let in the light, that destroyed the wall and expanded my sight. Within that new field I planted to grow, a deeper understanding of our love to know. And just today, not a moment too soon, I spied our first flower, a Daffodil bloom. by April Bender Mood audio: Most Wonderful Music - Between Worlds Synchronicity: Daffodils are symbolic of spring - of birth and new beginnings.

Springtime Sigh

Lilting tones and rainbow hues Dance across a quiet room. Curtains sway, kissed by the wind, Carrying expressions of a gentle afternoon. Its breath is ripe, fragrantly sweet, From wildflower blooms nearby. Earthen woods frame the view, While birds sail high in the sky. The air, it hums, teeming with life, Of a wild and subtle kind. As the sun's rays beckon eyes to close, I exhale a contented s i g h. by April Bender Mood Audio: Relaxing Celtic Music

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